Prince Charming and Me

I vividly remembered the night I met Prince Charming. We met each other under the most unusual circumstances. I think it's almost a year since we met and I have no idea where we are. Are we friends? Are we in love? Or are we just two people who find each other interesting and nothing more than that?

After telling Prince Charming about what I study, things have changed. Suddenly, I become his personal doctor. He would ask me things about his health. He plays intense sports (which explains the hot bod) and have old sport injuries. He has already seek treatment from specialists but somehow he seeks my personal opinion. I wonder if he wants to test the depth of my knowledge or it’s because he values the opinion of someone he feels close to.

Once in a while, he would sms me asking about medicine. He’s lucky as I take my pharmacology subject very seriously. He would ask about supplements and complementary medicine. Even to the extent of asking me about micronutrients and trace minerals. Sometimes, I feel like I’m working as telemedic operator. Call this number 012-xxxxxxx to ask about personal health care information, products and services. I’m not a doctor yet. I am very careful when it comes to dispensing medical advice.

After the revelation of me studying medicine, everything seemed to change. He would be busy asking questions about health. He stopped asking about me. Once, I was sick. I didn’t think he noticed. I just kept quiet.

This reminded me about my ex. Both of us were in the same small town at that time. He knew I was a top student in the country for a public exam. Once I asked him, “Why do you love me?” He replied, “Because you are intelligent.” I think he saw me as a brain, not for who I am.

It’s all coming back to me now. Prince Charming has started to see me as a brain. I want him to see me as Little Dove. Sadly, that’s not the case. That was why I did not want to disclose what I am studying earlier on. Is being a future doctor so powerful that people start to love the profession more than the boy itself?

There was one weekend I where went for brunch with Prince Charming. I asked him out, it seemed like I was the one initiating things. As I went to pick him up, he appeared in smart casual wearing nice shoes. I was in t-shirt, shorts and flip-flops with my ruffled, uncombed hair. We laughed at each other. I thought it was very nice of him to dress up for me and wanting to look good while we were out together.

After I sent him back to his simple bachelor pad (as he calls it) in Mont Kiara, he sent me a text message:

Prince Charming: I thought you will drop by after meal but you didn’t.

Little Dove: I would if you had asked.

Prince Charming: You never show interest to come up so I was also shy to ask.

Little Dove: I asked you out for brunch because I’m interested in you. Maybe next time you could ask, "Would you like to come up for some coffee?"

Prince Charming: Haha. You’re right. I am a bit dumb de. Next time say louder o.

Little Dove: I’m shy. How do I say that in front of you?

Prince Charming: Ok. Point taken.

Little Dove: I like you a lot. (At this point, I had to tell him)

Prince Charming: Tq tq dear

“Tq tq dear.” I have no inkling on what his reaction meant. That's one thing I dislike about text messaging. I would not know his facial expressions as he texted me back. Is he happy that I’ve finally confessed ? Or is he feeling the same way too?

Prince Charming has left Malaysia for his overseas assignment. This is his real job. Looking after his retail shops were only his side income. I had mixed feelings when he told me he was flying back to work and asked me to take care of myself. On the day before he left, he was still busy asking me about medical related stuff. It seems like he was more fascinated with medicine than Little Dove. I bid goodbye when he left. I was not going to miss him. I thought this was going to be the end. I was not going to miss him I kept telling myself. Then an sms with a strange number appeared on my phone screen. It was from Prince Charming:

Hi dear, I reached _____. Now at hotel resting.

I smiled. At last, he is not asking me something medical. Why did he have tell me he has arrived at his destination? What is my role to him?

The next day, another strange number was calling me on my mobile. I did not feel like picking up the call and let it rang for a long time. When I answered the call, a familiar voice called out, “Hello doctor, what are you doing?” Now I am back to being the medical brain. It was Prince Charming. I was worried long distance call would be expensive. But he was busy asking me all about medical related problems and I gently reassured him. Only before he hung up, I managed to ask him how he was doing over there.

Everything is making me confused. He sent me a text message when he reached that faraway country. The next day itself, he called me. What he is doing seems to signal that he is missing me. And yet, in our conversation there was no talk about us. It was just questions, questions and questions about health and medicine.

I am writing about Pince Charming because I want to clear my mind on what’s happening between me and him. I still do not know the answer. I don’t think he does either. I wish I knew.

I think I miss Prince Charming already...

I want to fall for you, but I am not sure if you’ll catch me.
Little Dove